stagnation period

寒露。 I did not want to write this post. Nothing new, nothing I haven’t already mulled over. I think it’s just another sort of what people call “writer’s block”, or “artist’s block”; I would not be so pretentious as to adopt such monikers (despite my tendency to disperse Interesting clichéd phrases throughout my expressions). A “creative block” is too big of a name. I cannot claim that I am (a) […]

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the origin of fruit flies

秋分。 I moved to a new place. No matter where I’ve lived so far, I’ve always felt like a guest in someone else’s home. At some point, you realize that even as a kid and you were the ruler of your little den room and half the living room, there were still parts of the apartment unit you didn’t really know. The cupboards above the stove, the bottom drawer of […]

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$7.19

白露。 It’s already 11pm, so I won’t write too much. The picture for today is the first thing I’ve made in a while… whether it’s for these posts or for fun. I haven’t been up to much (creatively). Since last time, I’ve been moving—packing, loading, unloading, moving, doing that again after getting keys, and then now unpacking finally. I unfortunately hurt my back because I am very weak and ended […]

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it is very hot and humid here

处暑。 I couldn’t fall asleep last night. The AC is on pretty strong here, but I felt almost feverish. I wasn’t necessarily uncomfortable, or anxious, or even inspired. It was kind of like fireworks, in the way that I had a lot of wildly unrelated thoughts and ideas all of a sudden, and then they would die out only for a new set of weird thoughts and phrases enter my […]

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disorganization

立秋。 Nothing of importance this time. It’s a remarkably warm summer this year, and I have have survived mostly by laying down around the house and wearing as few pieces of clothing as possible while remaining somewhat presentable/decent. My class is almost done, thankfully. Having one class is equivalent to… having none, to be honest. Soon we return to the Grind, which is something I am both dreading and anticipating […]

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experimenting with fear

大暑。 Since it’s quite late and I (almost) forgot to write, this will be a more fragmentary and list-like post. In the past few weeks I was moderately productive: I have yet to do any work for my class, but the first test’s deadline is tomorrow so I’ll get to it… later. I also bleached and colourred my hair and now I am blond, which is incredibly fun. Only one […]

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some comfortable pants

小暑。 It’s been really hot! A lot has also happened, but I’m going to try to prioritize things based on time. Otherwise I’ll be frustrated and sit in my little cesspool until I drown. My sister graduated from high school, and I turned 20. My second summer course has begun, and I met with old friends and had an interesting birthday surprise that I almost ruined. Honestly, although I figured […]

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fragility

夏至。 Here’s a clip from last Wednesday. The trip home was smooth, and the flight was pretty comfortable. It’s partly because the middle seat was left empty, so the person in my aisle and I both had a suitable amount of space. They offered a lot of water, which was also appreciated. I am a very dehydrated person. As usual, I was given a window seat. Since my flight was in […]

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sudden heat warning

芒种。 Well, I didn’t end up doing too much the past few weeks either. I did my assignment, went to the dentist, got vaccinated, and overall felt quite lethargic. I also didn’t watch many things, or enjoy anything either. It hadn’t been too hot until yesterday, where I received a heat warning notification. There’s also a thunderstorm warning, which I’m kind of looking forward to. I’ve also killed a bunch […]

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mid-afternoon coffee

小满。 The above image is an unedited photograph I took with a Fujifilm Finepix camera I got from a seller on ebay. It works great and really gets the Nostalgic Feel, even though I can’t use it for my class. It’s fun, and I like having a point and shoot I can just take outside. If I wanted high-quality pictures, I’d bring my Rebel T6, and if I wanted pictures […]

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