how to live

I’m supposedly on vacation, but at this point of my life a vacation just means not going to school, so I’m actually still doing a bunch of other things. So I’m in China, just kind of wandering around until my parents and siblings get here. Also, I realize that I don’t need a lot of … [Read more…]

day by day

My little brother turned eight a couple of days ago! I was in the midst of exam season so I couldn’t be there unfortunately, but I did buy him a present so there’s that. It’s strange to think that he’s already eight… I sometimes think my sister is eight still, although she’s almost double that. … [Read more…]

2019 wishes

Although I didn’t do the whole resolutions thing last year, I figured it’d still be nice to review the past year a little bit. Truthfully, I can’t recall easily anything specific from 2018 in terms of what I did in each month (something I used to catalogue dutifully), but I do remember that I was … [Read more…]

that’s all i’ve got

There’s a lot I’d like to say, or at least a lot I feel like I should say. Formality, or tradition, or whatever the reason behind it is. The obligatory “don’t forget me” “have a nice summer (and next 4 years)” “i’ll miss you” messages. Even if it’s true (I won’t forget, even if I … [Read more…]

A Thought About Progress

Changing habits (or getting rid of them) is an incredibly difficult thing to do. Trying to change my mindset is something I’ve been trying to do for a while now, but I think I’ve settled into some kind of… tolerating myself and ignoring the annoying things I don’t want to think about. I procrastinate the … [Read more…]

18

Instead of making new resolutions and screaming about how stagnant I am, I will compile the resolutions from previous years. I will also hopefully make as few comments as I can, because I don’t really feel like getting into the past. 2017 1. Stop eating like 10 chocolates a day. 5 is ok. 2. Don’t … [Read more…]

motifs

I think I went through a half-baked identity crisis when I was twelve-ish, which included depressing ignorant thoughts about existentialism (also why I find discussing this in class kind of funny) and a lot of sad posts. I was not very good at being a pre-teen, but at least that’s over. What happened after this … [Read more…]

meloncholy

These days, I’ve come to do less nostalgic thinking. The downside to that is that I have also been doing less thinking in general. Although that is usually not a celebrated thing, it is even more terrible now that I have encountered a Critical Period of my high school life: the end of it. This … [Read more…]

a series of quotes

Although I haven’t done much creative or personal writing recently, I do have a collection of things I’ve done for English this passing year that I have no need for. Coleridge:   For the sky and the sea, and the sea and the sky Lay like a load on my weary eye   (ll.250-251) The … [Read more…]

prelude to rain

A good way to distract yourself from distractions is to keep busy. Always have something to do. If you don’t want to do it, do something else. The weather has been alright recently, a bit unpredictable at times. It’s either really warm or quite cold, though, so it’s a bit uncomfortable. I wish it was … [Read more…]